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I think I'm more apt.

or maybe not...

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no solace in being a spoiled brat.

I feel so,
so bad
that my mom is going to buy me
a new laptop,
a new amp,
school clothes?
school TUITION?!

there's nothing I could possibly give in return,
I'm broke,
our house is immaculate.

I could try being a good daughter.
I am.
really hard.
trying I mean.
and it's working.

but of course that's not worth hundreds of dollars.
it should be expected.

I could decline the stuff,
but I want it.
really badly.

let it be known,
that even if I am a spoiled brat,
I still feel guilty for it.

at least I can say that.

what kind of life:

is it, where good people get screwed over?
what kind of god could create some people luckier than others?
what kind of god could watch the unlucky ones suffer?
what kind of world could generate so much unhappiness, with so few blind spots?

what kind of sane [ignorant?] person could live without wondering stuff like that?





don't get sick.