no solace in being a spoiled brat.

I feel so,
so bad
that my mom is going to buy me
a new laptop,
a new amp,
school clothes?
school TUITION?!

there's nothing I could possibly give in return,
I'm broke,
our house is immaculate.

I could try being a good daughter.
I am.
really hard.
trying I mean.
and it's working.

but of course that's not worth hundreds of dollars.
it should be expected.

I could decline the stuff,
but I want it.
really badly.

let it be known,
that even if I am a spoiled brat,
I still feel guilty for it.

at least I can say that.